self control

i have not blogged in a while. which isn't good. but tonight i am blogging about self control. for me it is something really need to work on. i have some situations where i handle muself horriblely. but recently i was put in another one of these situations. i had to pray and think to myself "should i fiight back or just be the bigger person and wal away" it took me awhile to realize that if i fight back then i wouldn't be any better thanthe other person. and i would have to live with that. so in the end at that moment God had said "hannah don't do it just let it go" so i did. and everyday he is teaching me that i have a choice. that we determine the out come of any situation. and that is exactly what i did. i determined my outcome and i get too say that everyday. also if you don't have self control you don't have yourself. if you understand what i am saying. i was not who i was until that moment when i controlled the outcome. so in the end God taught me that self conrol is what i needed to find myself. and i am on my way to that.

LIFE

WOW... it has been a while huh? i kinda miss you. well i have had a lot happening. my choices have kinda just blew up in my face. i am learning that no matter how hard i try to hide my wrong doing i FAIL.... immensly. trust me it sucks. but wow God is so...so amazing. too amazing for words. i am working with him on fixing my bad habbits. and it is harder than i thought. i have always been an angry unforgiving person. and then pretened like i was perfect and holy at church. but after so much hate that i had. i couldn't just leave it at the door of the church. it went everywhere with me. it was so much.  i am learning that i am always wrong when i say everyone is against me. they are not against me or you they are with us. i used to think that i could handle the words, the pain, the hate, the past, and the world by myself. and man oh man was i wrong. life is never going to get easier. i have learned that. never but i will get stronger.my words of hate will become silent and my actions and prayers will become louder and bolder. so in all God is all i and you need to grow and become stronger. he is all i want. he is my forever teacher.                                                                      

love you guys,

        hannah rinaldi