putting my well being in god

So recently I have had health problems. Which I am praying about and have had some people pray for me. I really am having a hard time letting God help me be healthy. Because I don't think it will do anything. Along this road though he keeps telling me he is trying to help me but I won't let him in. I think it is because I am extremely scared to let him try. I know I should but I also know it isn't easy. he keeps trying as am I. I am scared so much just sometimes thinking about makes me cry. but I have ask God everyday to please heal my body. I feel as if he is trying. I am so thankful for his awesomeness I mean without it I don't think I would ever be where I am now. I love him so much! thank you for helping me trust you God.