family

whew, family.... someone once asked me what does family mean to you.the problem i didn't know what to say. it was like i didn't care what it means or is. today if you were to ask me "what does family mean to you?" i would tell you...to me it means having people that blood or not to lean on. to trust..not completely. only because they WILL let me down. but people that will cry, laugh, smile, and hurt with me. people that i can call and if they don't pick up. i leave a voice mail. and they listen to it right away and can tell by my voice she is in tears and needs me. then call back 2 seconds later and just listen. not talk or interrupt me but listen. or someone who tells me in front of their friends that they love me. family is a group or just a few people who care and love you for you.
                   my family isn't big. that person who calls 2 seconds after i leave a voice mail is a guy i call tomithy. it's timothy but tom instead. he has always been there to pick up my calls. help calm me down and has helped a lot with me finding my relationship with God. he is the best and i love him to death. my family is whoever treats me with love and care. i love my family. i love my mom, dad, brother jacob, sisters ally and leah. and a lot of other people. to many to type in this blog. but maybe another time. to tell what God has to do with this. without him putting where i am. i would have never met the people that love me the most. he is the reason i am who i am and who i know today. that is where God fits in. okay well he fits in EVERYWHERE. i love you guys thnk you for reading and supporting me.

flash back

so school today when really hard. but of course God came through. today someone who used to bully me everyday came and asked for my help. and i thought to myself. WTF!?!?!? like who do you think you are?!?!?! and then i felt something in me. and it was god. i felt him saying "hannah what are you doing? you should have already gotten over the past. and now you should hear her out. it could do you some good." so i did. she was going through the same exact thing that her and her friends were doing to me. people not telling her why they were mad. and bullying her. also ignoring her. that moment my first thought was "It sucks being treated that way huh? you don't like do you?" so i told to talk to god. she look at me like i was going crazy. and maybe i am but that is when i noticed that hey i am proud to be a god loving christian freak. it doesn't make me crazy. i am me. i am loving, worthy, caring, beautiful, child of god, LOVED, outgoing, talkative, and sometimes super annoying, christian person. to be honest i am so proud that god gave me those gifts. it makes me what him and i want to be.i also have learned that if you don't like it... NEWS FLASH i like me. i love me...GOD HAS AND WILL ALWAYS LOVE ME!!! I always knew it just never ever believed it. not for a second. now i believe it everyday of every second. man god is great. he shows what is true. and what is bull crap. how many people can do that and still never let you down. NO ONE WILL EVER BE ABLE TO DO THAT. hannah Weisensale is the one who help me recognize that. i love you guys and god of course. bye thanks for reading my blog.